the pain, the hurt
the frustration, the tears
the heartaches, the fears
spinning and spinning
not knowing which way to go
yelling and screaming
she's going to blow
"i understand" no you don't!
falling, falling, shes crumbling
giving up on herself
giving up on life and everybody in it
they all let you down
emotional wreck, she's giving in
to the pain that goes but forces itself in
happieness she fears
for if it goes wrong it ends in tears...
falling falling
she drops to the ground
crying and screaming without a sound...

2009

Happy New Year!! It's a new year and a new beginning. Out with the old and in with the new. Let's make it a good year folks! 2008 is over! What a year! I won't go back and remember all of the memories of 2008. Although there were some good memories, most are hurtful and too painful to think about. So I will focus on the new year and new beginnings. I need to stop focusing about the past and start living in the present. It's not fair to the people i love to keep living in the past. So here's to the present! Last night i went to my church with my parents, and Joe and his family to see the Fireproof movie. We had a great turnout! And the movie was great also! I'd reccommend it to anyone! I cried in it though so have a box of tissues nearby when you watch it! Then Joe and Travis came back to the house with my parents and my sister adn they stayed till a little after 12 and then my two best friends came over and we stayed up until about 5 talking and watching movies. It was fun. But last night when the movie was over and Joe's parents left, he came in with half a dozen of roses just for new years! I was shocked and kept saying 'I cannot believe you did that!" I almost cried because i was kind of depressed because of the movie but i didn't. It was so sweet though! I was completely surprised. It's something I'm not used to, lol but it made me happy. So i'd say my new years eve was pretty good lol. And my Christmas was pretty good too, even if i did have a fight with my brother, and cried the entire way home from my grandparents house because i was remembering too much. But okay, here are some pictures of my roses and my new phone!! and some other just random pictures. Alright well I hope everyone has a great 2009!! May God bless you and your family!!!



......Or not cuz its not working at the moment. But anyways they were pink and they had babies breath mixed in with them. They are so pretty. But yeah. Well i'm going to go. Break is almost over and i have a ton, and i mean a TON of homework to do. There's no way I'm going to get it done. And tomorrow I'm supposed to be going down to Maryland to go shopping with my aunt and uncle but i dont' know if i'm going or not because of my homework. blahhh....but okay Happy New Year!!